Haruskah?

Despite of self-granting extra one week holiday to myself…

Tidak mau pulang ke Indon!

Tanak!! Tanak! Tanak!!!

(nangis teresak-esak)

Haruskah?

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I hate moments like this when days are down to doom. Like a huge cancerous growth is metastasizing to my every organ in my body and worse affecting my emotions. My 5 days survival rate is 0%, and once the time is up, I'll be there living my disastrous life in the vein of a zombie living dead with other zombies who are trying hard to be alive.

Pointing out the reasons to be living-dead and surviving is just to end my torment – torment of mixed causes that don't just stand individually.

Torment of being far away in a far out sigh land where entertainments are in need to be dug out and make-felt, sham imaginations make a good company.

The plague attack of several undetected rare illness such as homesickness and badly want to be accompanied by a physical contact of a soulmate.

Great ordeal with a number of unfamiliar and exasperating behaviors of the locals…

Wait!

I better stop listing out the bothersome!